Lately I often find myself staring into space blankly. Then whenever one of my friends ask me 'What's wrong?' I just shake my head and say 'Nothing' when there's actually a million things & questions running through my mind that very minute. Im on shaky grounds.
Lately,Ive become more observant. Ive been noticing these little things and its making me hate myself. It made me realise a few things & I cant help but beat myself up inside for it. We always tell other people not to judge us,when we're actually the ones judging ourselves.
I know this may sound selfish of me but I dont understand how some people have life so easy when Im forever on the ground,always struggling to get back up when life shoves me down. Im tired. Im so so so so tired. I don't want to get back up anymore,not if life would just push me back down again. Im all dried out. Out of strength,out of faith. I don't think anyone would be able to love me,I have too many scars. Permanent scars.
Its funny how Im really good at pretending Im happy. Really funny.
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