"my heart is totally broken now" 

FYI ,i listen to songs depends on what i feel at the moment .so if you want to know whether i'm okay or i'm not ,just see it through what song am i listening to at the time .And that's the reason why i don't have a favourite song .i DO have.. but i'll not like the song anymore when my feelings change . 

  

 

someone is 'kind of' owning my heart :O
this is crazy ,i know .but i think ...i really fell for him .But ,i don't know ..something really disturbs my conscience .After all what happened before this ,i just can't trust any guy anymore cause i'm afraid if i'll trust the wrong guy .but it's like ...if i don't have a try to love someone & letting someone to love me ..i'll miss out the chance to find my true love ,BUT..if i'm giving my heart to someone ,i've to take high risks .arghh ,this is just so confusing .hmmph *knockmyownhead*
you know ,guys are unpredictable .what will happen next ? no one knows ;| .   kay stop for awhile kay ? Today is shooo fun fun fun haha . you know ? huh td pagi like hahahahaha stupid . so after me and ejatt go ksl , we when to mcd kobena . then he wanna go toilet but pehal bawak fon like mcm nak call someone or something , so my heart its totally raguragu . but salright not my problem wehh .  okay then balik my bestfriends come to my house , myreen . hahaha so handsome as always . he bring his girlfriends . oh eg gee gila lawa mcm selalu . hehe . diaorang ajar fina sejarah sampai lebam wa pening kepale . asal study sejarah je mesti mengantuk .  but you know what ? dieorg belikan I kisses . Omg mcm tau tau je aku suka kisses .    so yeah malam pergi kenduri rmh uncle dollah . ramai gila boleh ? lepas magrib start then habis around 10stgh something . baru habis belum makan lagi . lepas orang luar balik , kak idah panggil me , kakya , omar , aqil and emal tiup belon . semmput aku meniup . then nampak je budak kecik lalu , dieorg da nampak kene tahan tk boleh keluar kalau tk nanti kecoh afi tahu . da tk surprise . hehe . you know what ? orang tua plus dewasa plus kanakanak semua pakai topeng and like birthday budakbudak pakai mcm mcm ? abang ali jage afi dkt depan . amboi abg arrin dgn kak idah kemain excited lagi . cukup 3orang nyanyi kecoh siap ada ombak 3rumah boleh dengar . hehe .  .........  I getting hurt when you say i love you . my kepale hotak just ingat oh he love me as a friends . thats all .  I hope you realise that Im doing this for us. Im trying to make this less painful for us. I wish you love. I can't imagine you with another girl. I can't imagine myself talking and being open to another guy,the way I was with you. I can't imagine being comfortable with any other guy,other than you. I can't imagine not being able to give you a call just to talk about my day. I can't imagine the cold nights without your sweatshirt. I can't imagine looking at you and have to fight the urge to crush you with a bear hug. I can't. But I will. You will. We're young,we'll move on. We'll be fine.  Hopefully. blablahblahblah I tanye meryn , you boy mcm mane melamar your beautiful girl ? then then answer is he meet his gf . a date . and ade la ckp blahblahblah then dia bg bracelet . omg sweet gilahh melamar dpndpn but u'uh ? haha . ala ala suare alex pettyfer . hehe .  I should get a long nap . goodnight world . sleep well .

  
"How to be brave , how can I love when I'm afraid to fall "