And I shall vow to never fall again;

I question myself and my capabilities. Why do I keep talking the talk to myself but never walking the walk that I've promised? Could it be that I'm just too over-confident? Most the time, I doubt it. I'm always degrading myself. Not as a humble statement but because I doubt myself all the time. Only God knows how low my self-esteems are. I'm honestly scared. I do not know how to get rid of this fear because I'm always PROCRASTINATING and it hurts to see it this way. I am such a lazy person. I get frustrated with my achievements because I'm always hoping for so much more but it looks like I'm not doing anything to reach it. Which in return, gives me nothing. Nothing at all.

With my studies.. Oh God. I honestly know what I can do. Studying isn't even hard. It's hard to start, YES but once I've started, I love letting the momentum go where my brain absorbs knowledge. Discovering new things, knowing so much about something people know so little. Learning something I never knew was even important in life. BUT THAT'S JUST IT. THE PROBLEM IS.. I don't know how to start and here I tell myself, I'd try to get straight A's.

It's time for me to pack my laptop, give in my phones, start taking out books and stack em' all up on my bed and become what I should become. I do not want to disappoint anyone anymore. I want to be a role model. I want a better me. Someone where if I were to put myself as the 7 year old me and look up to who I plan to be, I'd be proud. I'm ready to put on my armor and hold my shield up high. My sword's waiting for me, all I have to do is just pick it up. Here comes war between my inner Medusa and I.
I might sound silly and just imaginative, but there's an honest battle in me.

I shall make my kingdom proud.